Help me meet my son for the first time and continue to be apart of his life

I believe in paying it forward. For every $50 I can raise $5 will go back towards a children's cause. I hope to show Ryan that paying it forward is meaningful way of life and something he should always practice.

I'm trying to raise funds to meet my son for the first time. My name is Mark and my son Ryan and I have unfortunately never met. He is turning 12 and I am turning (well old) and we don't want to wait another year. Due to personal health problems and the debt from those issues it has been an obstacle to meet. I am not the type to ask for help but I am asking for my sons benefit because this has to happen.

I started out 2017 pretty much close to death from a sever issue with my colon, overly worked (underpaid), hospital bills and stressed about not ever getting to meet him before but now I have fought off the things trying to bring me down and I promised him and I that I wouldn't do that again.

My closest family and friends know that I have honestly been on a path of bettering my life through body and spirit. I feel good, enjoy my days yet deep down I can no longer be happy about these changes unless I can share them with Ryan if even only for a week at first. He is going on 12 this coming year. That's to long. Opportunities missed, my fault, her fault, work, life, location, health, mostly money or whatever the reason it all stops now. His mother is a good woman and great mother but her herself suffers with MS and I need help to try and figure out the best way to get me situated in Fl to help as much as I can.

He is my blood and in so many ways he can make me a better person and I am no longer blind to that. We have been separated to long but luckily he understands the issues and how far away we are but talking on the phone just isn't enough.

I'm trying to do this in September / October before he get to much school work and I have to many things to worry about here. All I'm aiming for is a flight, car, a cheap room and if it gets good enough, bring my son to Epcot for the day (he's a geek like me) and we'll sneak our own food in if we have to.

I have a little saved up but between helping others at home, myself and rent, bills and health-care expenses it's hard. This is the absolute the last thing I thought I would resort to and I never ask for help but I need it.

I know rents due, your car has bad brakes and/or you're trying to save up yourself and I understand that and don't feel burdened by my request. I feel bad enough doing this but I just can't do it alone and if you can help great, if you can't no problem I understand.

I don't expect to reach the goal, heck I doubt I'll get a quarter of it but anything helps even $5 and now is the time before it's to late for me. Whatever I do get. any leftovers are going into a college fund and bank account for him because he's smart and will do with it, the right things.

I've seen to many friends pass on as of late and I don't want to ever be in the position to think, I didn't try. Thank you all.