Hi my name is Colleen, I’m 29 years old... Im an honest, caring person, I tend to help others before myself.
I’ve been abused most of my life, physically, mentally, emotionally, verbally, financially, isolation... My mother kicked me out when I was 15, at the Age of 16 I quit school, I was physically abused until I was almost 21, locked in a house not knowing the world around me. I then ended up in a women’s shelter for weeks, I got away from it, I thought it was over, that it was never going to happen to me again, boy was I ever wrong!
Move forward to me being 23, I met a man that I thought was my Prince Charming as anyone would say, I thought I would be with him forever, he was amazing! He helped me with everything, the first 2/3 year were perfect then things started to change.... he stopped being Prince Charming, he stopped helping me with things, he stopped talking to me as a person, he stopped treating me like an equal... He makes a mess and doesn’t clean it up, he talks down to me, I’m not allowed to speak without him getting mad, yelling and screaming at me constantly.... Move forward to me being 28/29 the past year or two now.... he’s become very aggressive to the point he’s wipped me across the chest with a rope, grabbed me a few times, pushed me, calling me names, telling me to die, saying he wants to smash my skull in... Ive been physically abused but that doesn’t compare to all the hateful words! Bruises go away, words don’t!! For the past year he’s been saying he doesn’t want to live here but he doesn’t want me here either. Well he got his wish because we got evicted from our house, he wouldn’t even help me clean or pack anything, knowing I have health issues and it causes me so much pain. The only thing I have left are my children (my bunnies), this is how him being selfish comes in to play. Knowing it’s hard to find a pet friendly place, knowing that I have absolutely no where to go or stay, he still gets us kicked out. He sold everything that I own, I have nothing to call my own anymore. My bunnies are my life, I can’t imagine my life without them and nor do I want to, They keep me going everyday!! They give me a reason to get up everyday and want to be alive, they are my family I can’t just give them up. Last month I applied for school to better my life and get an education, I couldn’t even do that and I’m completely devastated about it. I even had a bit of money put up and he has taken that from me and spent it, he has somewhere to go and stay, I have no where. I can get an apartment but I have no money to pay for one right now. I have absolutely nothing just a bit of clothes to my name. I feel like it’s all I’ve been put on this earth for is to be abused. I have so many health problems(fibromyalgia, hypoglycaemia, liver problems, stomach and bowel problem, hernia), more test that I need done because there are other concerning matters. The stress of me being abused, homeless, thought of loosing my babies isn’t making things any easier, stress causes me a lot of pain.
If anyone can find it in their heart to help me out of this situation I thank you from the bottom of my heart! For helping me keep what bit of my life I have left.... I never ask for help, I’m always the one helping. I’m sorry for having to ask for help but I don’t know what else to do.