Help me heal my C-PSTD

Hi, I've been trying for years to heal from my OCD. After years and years of unproductive therapies, when I Invested all the money I had (I was a University student at the time, so my income was very low), I went to my next psychologist who diagnosed me with my true illness: complex post traumatic stress disorder. I was so into resolving what I thought was my real problem that, in the last 5 years, I started to neglect my personal hygiene, my physical health deteriored, and now I struggle with extreme anxiety, intermittent rage, depression and suicidal impulses. Due to a neglecting psychologist (expert in ocd, she said), whom I went to 5 years ago, and the concomitant worsening of my ocd, it's been 5 years since I don't come out my home. I've NEVER been agoraphobic before this disastrous therapy.

My original family is very low income, too, I went to University thanks to total exemption from university fees and some sholarships due to my diligence in the studies, the majority of which went to the aforementioned disastrous therapy . They can help me with small expenses, but therapy for C-PSTD costs A LOT.

I need money for body therapy, for health check-ups, for my new psychologist and for any meds I willl need to take. I DON'T TRUST EASILY PEOPLE due to trauma, abuse, and neglect, and since my illness is so strong, it prevented me to work in any time in my life. The only money I received, was due to sholaships, I studied hard in my life and now, I have nothing.

Thank you very muck to whoever will and would like to help me.

I'm also very shy and fear being bullied, that's why I don't give out many details about me, I fear for my privacy since I was badly bullied even in adulthood.

I NEED MONEY AS SOON AS POSSIBLE, SORRY BUT MY PRESENT CONDITION IS DESPERATE, even a small donation would make me happy. Thank you <3