Help me have faith in life.

My life turned around bad in June 2014 just after I took a loan for business investment which failed due to corruption done by management which was appointed by the main company. The court case dragged so long and did not have enough money for lawyers. Had no choice but to pay back the loan to the bank from my salary which made things worse as I stopped paying other accounts. That is still the case even at this time in point and I haven't paid my accounts for the past 2 years. In January 2015 my car broke down and the insurance refused to fix it. I use the car everyday to work, there is no other mode of transport to my workplace which is in a remote area.

Adding to my stress of finance, I borrowed money from friends to fix the car. Now I can't pay them back and everyone is furious, no one wants to hear my story anymore. Some threaten to open a case for me, It's obvious the relationship is damaged. Younger I'm, have a family of nine which is relying on me. My parents are not working, im a breadwinner. My salary is not enough to cover the monthly expenses. I feel useless and better not to survive, I'm so depressed and have no options.

I can provide with proof if needed to substantiate my story. Life is not worth leaving to me at the moment. I'm studying further and always applying for better positions but with no luck. Lost all the pride and dignity, I really need help for finance. I would really appreciate the little I get. Thank you.