Help me get my life on track.

Hello to everyone seeing this page.
Im a 22 year old Transgender woman living in germany, currently im going the legal way to aquire Hormone replacement therapy, which will probably start in a few months.

Well now to the actual trouble.
I am Jobless and without any Income.

Due to me repressing my feelings for all my life, i fell into a deep depression.
I dropped out of University 2 times, and have nothing to show for it.

With my decision to finally pursue transition, i also decided that i have to get my life in order.
I am applying for a lot of apprenticeships all around NRW in Germany, hoping i can find a good job.

It is still an incredible struggle for me to actually find the motivation to do anything, but i can manage.

Now the most recent trouble, with me dropping out of university, i cant receive BaFög any longer (kinda like welfare for students)
And the jobcenter denied my application for welfare because of dumb reasons.
I will probably get the payment at a later date, but who knows when the documents are all finished.

A lot of costs also come at me like rent, food, and every few weeks the trainride to see my therapist.

I also worked for a temporary work company, which lends out its workers (me) to other companies.
I was naive and made some terrible mistakes.
Worked for 2 weeks, and now i will probably have to pay even more money back than i actually earned.

for the time being im staying afloat by borrowing money from my best friend, but i cant bear to borrow an amount that huge, i dont even know when i will be able to pay it all back.

So what will i do with the money?
Well if its just a little i earn, i will use it to lessen the burden on my friend.
If its more than enough, i would put it aside to finally get a drivers license to increase my chances of finding a job.

If you have any questions regarding this, or me, feel free to contact me.