Hi everyone. My name is Sivan I am 24 years old and my dream is to go study in university. I always wanted to be the few from my family to follow their dreams but unfortunately life strikes hard.
I grew up with 2 older siblings and a single mother. My father left us when we were kids and my mom needed to support us all by herself. She worked in every way she could but there were days when it wasn’t enough to feed us. My mom was sick mentally and physically and it wasn’t easy to witness this as a kid. She sometimes would leave us alone for days when we were only little kids. The home environment was verbally abusive. It was a sad and dark house. Despite everything I saw my mom working hard and I wanted to help so I started to work since I was 15.
my mom and I fought a lot, it was a daily struggle until she kicked me out when I was 17. There was a time when I was a homeless (never told anyone that), times when you'll do anything to stay warm and full.
at the age of 18 I joined the army to be a medic. I loved being a medic, the feeling when you're helping someone in any way they need is so satisfying. That experience and personal struggles lead me to be interested in psychology.
at the age of 21 I left the army realizing that while my friends are going to go to university I am going to have to wait with it.
I worked hard and saved money In any possible way that I could.
Unfortunately, my mental health began to decline due to personal and family problems. I thought it was a phase but It got worse. I showed everyone how strong and happy I am but inside I was just struggling to stay alive. It was so hard to balance everything and my depression and anxiety were getting worse. I cut off contact with the outside world and stopped talking to anyone I care about.
so many issues started to float and I neglected my ambitions and dreams.
it was very difficult to see people doing something with their life while I am not. Eventually I changed a switch and improved my grades from school and worked hard to have the possibility to be accepted to university. It took me a year to do that but I did that, I got in to my dream school majoring psychology and business.
I have a lot ambition and drive to reach my dreams, but my current financial factors are now preventing me from achieving my goals. Currently, I have no external help not even from my family. I did the best that I could but than covid-19 came and I got fired from my job. My job was the thing that gave me some hope but it was taken from me.
I don’t want to lose hope and faith but I need help. I am looking forward to my next chapter in life. I am trying to keep a smile on my face but i know that i need help to achieve my dreams and future goals.
any help would means a world.
every year costs 11,550$ and it’s a 4 years program.