After being totaly abused and forced to work for free for my father since I was a kid, I'm trying for the second time moving out of my toxic-abusive house.
When I was 17 reaching depression and unable to keep up, I left home and because of my corrupted emotional, and obviously my age, I failed,and I had to go back and be further humiliated by my dad.
In these last 2 years I am overcoming this and I dedicated myself a lot, I got a job and I have been studying hard, to recover the time I lost unfairly. Even moving on, I have to deal with my dad daily, in an unpleasant environment, everything gets harder and stressful, I haven't even received good birthday wishes since I was about 8 years old, he just talks to me about work, worse of all, my mother is a good person, but totally alienated from him, she definily can't help me. I love animals a lot, a simple detail that really makes me feel good, but even that I can't have, the last pets I had, my father abandoned them in a field. Unfortunately, violent solutions pop into my mind all the time, but I try to avoid them. One of the things I don't want in this life is to be like my father. I need to get out of the house as soon as possible, start a new healthy life, time is ticking for me, and unfortunately I need to ask for help.
I've tried some other simpler ways, like living with my grandparents, but they don't have much condition, and I ended up feeling like a parasite, because I could't help them so much. I really need to change my life, with difficulty, I collected a small amount, but it's a start. If you can help with any amount that doesn't make much of a difference to you, I would appreciate it, and what I hope most is that I will be able to help someone in the near future, thanks too much.