Ok, I'm not even sure if writing all this out will actually help. But at this point, I'd write it 100 times if it meant I could actually reach someone out there, and possibly get some kind of help. This is a long story, but I'll try my best to keep it short, at the expense of my hand and ur boredom lol. But hey, my name is Crystal and I'm a single mom to 4 awesome kids. Matter of fact, they are the reason I'm even writing this right now. I've been through A LOT of crappy stuff in my short 33 years. My childhood was really bad, followed by several failed relationships with abusive men! I got pregnant at 16, never had a mother. My grandmother "raised" me if u want to call it that. I met my dad at age 5 but my grandmother kept custody of me till I was 13. Then children servacies took me from her because of abuse, and gave me to my dad. At the tender age of 16 I was a mom and on my own. I loved my lil girl, and I loved being a mom, still do. Fast fwd almost 3 years, and I met n fell in love with my now soon to be ex husband. For the next decade i tried to make my marriage work while popping out 3 more babies. Honestly, he was a terrible husband. He had a bad narsasistic personality, he was very very controlling and he wasn't very nice mentally or physically. It was more mental abuse then physical. Our old house had probably over 20 holes in the walls from where he would punch the wall beside my head when he got mad. I was miserable, but didnt see a way out for many years. After our youngest was born I stopped working and started staying home full time. My ex pretty much kept me under a rock. I wasnt aloud to drive, or see family n friends very much. The only relief I got was going grocery shopping, that's the only place I could go besides doc appointments. And even then he drove me. For years I didnt have a winter coat or even tennis shoes. I completely felt trapped, and when his sister finished law school, he made dang sure I was scared to leave! He would tell me if I ever tried to take the kids and leave, he would take my children from me. He could do it because his sister was now an attorney! In fear of losing my babies I stayed. For years I was miserable, trapped. At some points in them days I didnt feel like living. Well finally one cold day in Feb, 2017 I had enough!! We got into a HUGE argument. I demanded that he leave. He took my 3 younger children with him. I found myself desperate, not knowing where to go, or who I could ask for help. I called a domestic violence hotline and begged for advice on what I could do. After talking with an advocate for a couple hours on the phone. I did what she told me todo, and met her at the courthouse 1st thing the next morning. She helped me put an order of protection against my husband for me and my children. I went straight from the courthouse to my older 3s school and picked them up. I was gonna have to get my lilst one later, he had her and I didnt know where. Well within a couple hours of being back home with my oldest 3. A Sharif knocked at my door. There stood him, my husband, and his sister with order of protection papers. I was furious because according to the courthouse he couldn't legally take one out since I already had. I knew the 1st person he would go to would be his sister. By this time she had gained a reputation in the court system. She was able to manipulate the officer into believing my husbands order was active, and he took my babies!! I didnt know what todo. I was absolutely devastated, and had no clue who I could get to help me. Well that day was a fight from there on out. 2 weeks later i walked into court with the domestic violence advocate, and a legal aid lawyer that refused to meet with me prior to court. I walked in on an order of protection and walked out with only supervised visists with my babies over NOTHING!! No evidence that I had EVER been a bad mother! His sister had it rigged from the start. But i guess the judge couldn't let it seem like he was completely corrupt, and gave my boys to her, and my daughter to my mother n law. My husband then was aloud to move in with his mother and have my kids. I was left emotionally scard, terrified, and most of all hopeless! I was also left with all the bills, no vehicle, and no job! I hadn't worked in 4 years! I cried for my babies every single day!! That whole next year I was in the darkest moments of my life. My husband threatened me if I left he would take my kids, and he did! The pain from being away from my children was imbarable. He knew the only way he could hurt me was with my babies! All I did was work, then come home and cry myself to sleep. It put me in such a deep depression that I literally almost died! I didnt take care of myself at all. I had caught penomniea and didnt get it treated. I ended up on life support for 3 weeks, and it's by the grace of GOD that I'm even here. After the separation I ended up hiring the worst lawyer! Him and my husband's sister done so much malpractice within that year it was crazy. The ONLY thing my husband had against me was that I'm bipolar. But I've been medicated for over 5 years at that point, but that didnt matter. He was still able to use it against me. At the 1st mediation they all promised me un supervised visitation, and eventually 50/50 custody if I would agree for my kids to legally be in his custody. I found out that was all a lie at the 2nd mediation. So in March of 2018 I went to the second mediation thinking everything was fine. I had met with my attorney the friday before and he lied to me and said everything was great, and I had nothing to worry about. He lied to me! At this point my husbands sister had ruined EVERYTHING I had tried todo to get my kids back. She had sent in a video of me when I was sick with penomniea and a 104 fever. I had to cancel my visitation with my boys becausei didnt want to get them sick. But she came anyways saying she didnt know I was sick when I had called her, left her a voicemail and called her husband and told him. Thinking they had left I turned over on the couch and tried to go back to sleep. She took video of me, then sent it into the court clinic saying I was "lethargic" and refused to interact with my boys which wasn't true at all! Then in December of 2017 almost a year later, and just 2 months after being in the ICU. I lost my job due to my illness and lost my place. I had done it on my own for almost a year. There was an agency called CASA that came to check my place and see if I had what my kids needed. I explained to the lady that I was moving, and I was in the middle of packing. I had an apt already, but I was having to wait on the complex to finish renovations. I asked the CASA worker if she could come back when I got into my apt, that way she could see everything. She agreed. Well I guess she went straight from my place to my husbands sisters place to talk to my boys. The next day she came back to my place demanding to come inside. I agreed of course, but I had boxes and stuff everywhere, and my sister n law new it! She wasnt very nice that time. I knew what was going on after she told me she spoke with her and my boys!
So fast fwd to March 2018 and the second mediation. My attorney, my husband and his attorney gained up on me. Said I was an unfit mother because of my bipolar, even though I'd been on medication for years, and was only hospitalized once with my disorder!! Then my attorney took me into a different room and proceeded to tell me that because of the CASA report ( which I've still havent seen, or read) that because of that report, if I didnt agree to him having full custody, I'd not only lose my younger 3, but my oldest daughter too if I took it to court. And I'd never see them again! I cried so bad I couldn't even see. So me being stupid to the legal system I did what my attorney told me todo. They told me if I signed over custody, I'd get to see my kids whenever I wanted. And if I didnt sign I'd never see them again! So I signed the papers under duress. I thought at least that way I'd get to see them. I signed to him having full custody, and I only got them 65 days out of the year on paper! Now fast fwd to today. I take care of my kids 7 days a week. I get them everyday after school, I feed them supper, do homework, baths ect... And then I get them every single weekend. So I've figured out that he only wants it like this on paper so he wont have to pay child support. Now I'm trying to fight for disability, and I'm taking care of them on my own. Going back to work after we separated made me see how bad my back actually was, and it was REALLY REALLY hard for me to work. I'm not able to now and it's been really hard. I only want equal rights to my children legally, and help from my ex since I take care of them on a daily basis. I cant even pick my children up from school if they are sick because of the legal paperwork. I also want my attorny and his sister to be held accountable for what they did in the legal system. But I'll settle for my babies. So that's why I'm on here writing all this. I need help with hiring a good attorney, one in another county. And help with living until I can get my disability. My husband lives in his moms basement still, and has no bill's hardly at all! I'm struggling sooooo bad, idk if I'm gonna make it week to week. I've been online for weeks trying to find help, but with no luck. So here I am at all yalls mercy. Please, will someone out there please please help me?? I don't have nobody, no friends or real family. I'm all alone in this, and all's I want is my babies! Please, if u have the means to help me, I'm begging u!!!! If I cant get a good attorny hired, I'll never get my babies! Not with his sister corrupting the system. Please help me get my babies!! Thank u for ur time, and sorry this was so long. Thanks for reading and may God Bless!