Help me feel motivated

hi my name is Steph and I am 19 years old. I do not have a lot of motivation in life and I thought it would be a good idea to purchase a laptop to help me organise my life and get things going in the right direction. I am asking you lovely people to help me out because.... I have a casual job and I cannot even afford to go out. I stay at home all day every day and then go to work in the evenings. It's quite a depressing life. I have a passion in drawing and the laptop I want has a drawing feature on it. I'm hopefully going to use my drawings to earn a bit of money so I can pay off $12,000 worth of debt.

Lack of money is controlling my life and ....I feel there is nothing else I can do apart from what I am already doing.

I am actively looking for a full time job everyday, but if I am lucky enough to get an interview the reject me because of lack of experience.... I have been doing this for 2 years now and I am desperate.

Please help.