Help Me Feel Like Myself (FtM Transgender)

Throughout my entire life I have been battling with my own body and feeling that I don't belong to my body. It makes myself to be disgusted at my own body from a young age. Due to that, it has caused me multiple mental difficulties such as OCD, severe depression, social anxiety, body dysphoria and the biggest impact of all gender dysphoria, etc.

Due to all of these difficulties and my family being in financial crisis due to a scam attack on our family, my family are unable to fund for my transition and told me to give up on my dreams or think of full being able to transition to a male. This resulted me to be in a huge distress being forced and to be told to live my life as someone who I am not. This finance problem have lead to many problems such as not being able to seek professional help to aid on my mental difficulties, at risk of stopping my hormones therapy which I have finally gotten to be able to start with after continuously being delayed for many years.

I dream to be able to live my live as a male and to be able to graduate from University as a male and pursue my career as an actor in the future. And I would wish for my quality of life to be better. To finally be comfortable with my own body and not have to struggle with just facing myself in the mirror or even avoiding to go to the public washrooms/toilets all the time.

I hope that there will be kind souls out there whom are willing to help to fund me with the surgeries and fulfil my dreams to be able to finally fully physically transition as a male by the end of my 4 years in University starting this year.

I hope to be able to use the funds that I have raised to fund for my surgeries as well as my hormones therapy sessions. The remains of my funds after the entire physical transitions will be donated to others to help others with their financial parts for fellow transgender parties. And in the future, as I start working, or one day be a successful actor, I will promise to help donate/fund for other people and organizations in the LGBTQ+ communities as well as many other non-profit organizations.

Thank you for reading my long paragraphs and description for this funding. I will be keep updates on my journey throughout my physical transition.