Help me feel like a women again

I am a women who has had many operations. I have had 4 operations on my abdomen, 2012 I had my daughter via emergency c section the same year December I needed a back operations due to a slipped disk. The operation was done via my abdomen and it lasted 8 hours. I was very ill afterwards. A few years later I had my son via c-section after losing a baby and having to have a cone biopsy done as I had cancer cells on my cervix. After my son was born every check up I had showed cancer cells. At the young age of 30 years I had to make the heart breaking decision of either developing cancer (which is in my family) or having a hysterectomy. The pain of the decision was devastating as I wanted to have another child, but realized my beautiful pigeon pair was enough. Another surgery via the abdomen, but this one was the worst, the scar is terrible and the pain is daily.

I would really like to have reconstructive surgery and the doctor has advised that they can repair the section.

Many people don't understand the dippresion and daily pain. This surgery would mean everything to me and I will be able to jump,swim,ride bicycle and have fun with my two young kids again.

Please help me reach my dream of just being a women again.