Hello, I feel awkward doing this but I want to help myself.
I grew up in an abusive family. My father was always cursing to my brother and I, evn to my mom, my mom was always afraid of "what people will say" so she was doing nothing to protect us qnd herself. He was verbally abusing us but both my parents made it seem like it's something normal.
After growing up my brother became the exact thing as my father. We are both adults now. I know he has bad experiences as I do but no one gives him the right to calling me bad names when he's mad or even wishing me bad things.
My mom is always arguing with me, I'm trying to help as much as I can but still it's not enough.. I quit my studies because of our financial problems.. I'm near 24yo and employers don't "trust" me since I don't have a degree. However I managed to find a job but I only earn 80 euros per month and I give everything to contribute to the house.
All I want is to escape from here, my mental health is ruined, I wake up and I experience the same thing every day for years now, I can't handle it anymore..
My plan is to move to another city and build my life from the beginning.
I found a small apartment for 30.000 euros (at least if I have a place to live I won't be afraid of not having enough money to pay the rent)
I also want to finish my studies and I own 5000 euros to them plus 5000 euros for the last year. If I have a degree it will be more easy to find a better job
I would appreciate any of your help.