In my freshman year of college, I refused to give my mobile to my brother he suspected that I was talking to men, so he threatened that will beat me and when I kept refusing he started beating me and didn't stop until i agreed to give it to him.
my whole body was bruised and i felt pain all over my body and I couldn't stop crying but he insisted that I go to college that day, I told my friends and they said that he's my brother and it's normal and his right to do that and I wouldn't feel that way if it was my brother who beated me NOT my father and I had to apologize to him in the end.
in my sophomore year, he found out that i fell in love so he bought a new apartment next to his and forced me to move there took my mobile and locked me in that house my whole family treated me like shit and he said that if i wasn't virgin he would kill the man who did this then forced me to go to a doctor to check my hymen and when he knew i was still virgin i thought things started getting back to normal until i found out my sisters spied on me and told him every single detail about my life.
NOW I have depression and anxiety , I am afraid all the time and i can't get help, i blocked all my friends, i stopped talking to everyone and i have to pretend all the time to have different beliefs to make sure I am safe.
i couldn't share a lot of details here in case they found out about this.
two years ago, I tried to end my life but I survived. I thought this was a second chance but now things are just getting worse and I don't know for how long i will be able to keep going and I am starting to lose hope.
I need to start a new life away from my family where i feel safe and have control over my life, despite all that i never stopped trying and i know if i had the chance i could do great things and have better future.