Help me come clean

This has been soooooo hard to admit and talk about. I was unemployed and needed a mode of income, therefore I got involved in selling drugs, I got so caught up in the life that I landed up getting addicted to Tik (Crystal Meth). To support this lifestyle I got involved in prostitution and it was the start of a vicious cycle that went on and on and on and on. I have not taken a drug since 22nd May (since I found permanent work) or sold off my body since then and did a self detox at home. None of which has stopped the cravings or pshycological traumas of the prostitution scene. Now, all good and well that I am on the road to recovery but I owe the drug dealers R6000, I have extended the deadline by a week now and they are not been patient anymore. Sunday is my final deadline. I have tried to commit suicide twice this week and failed as I would rather die in my own hands than in the hands of the dealers. I have begged and pleaded and asked my friends and family for assistance but I guess everyone is just tired of me now. I am asking to please please please get assistance in helping me overcome this. I am not scared of death, but I do not want to die.