Help me become a father

Hello everybody.

perhaps many of you will find this desire of mine unconventional, but I can't think of another way to achieve my goal.

I am a 40-year-old gay man from Sofia. Higher education. Aquarius in the horoscope. I come from a very religious Orthodox family, which has always taught me that you should leave a mark.

I have been living with one partner for more than 15 years. He already has a child with a gay woman. I have participated in the upbringing of this child and I love him as mine, but the desire to give life to a new person, to raise him and give him everything he needs, most of all love and attention, with each passing day becomes more and more bigger. I want to feel the warmth of a hug from my own child ....

After much deliberation, I came across sites for surrogate mothers. This is probably the only way for me to get what I live for.I contacted companies that offer similar things, and their prices are from 60,000 to 80,000 euros. It's so impossible for me.

Why do you need so much money to give а new life? :(