Help me become a doctor despite my hearing loss problems

Everything started when I was a child.I slowly lost the ability to hear, my grades went low, some teachers didn’t think I was as smart as other children, I was shy, scared to give answers because I never knew if I heard right, I always sat in my chair and never talked so I wouldn’t say something wrong, this illness comes with anxiety and fear of judgment, at least for me.My family is a modest one, my dad is a truck driver and my mom has a small shop.They always did the best they could, my hearts breaks for my mom, she suffers from panic attacks, depression, they went through a lot so we could survive.

I started to dream to become a doctor, I could see how much the world needs to be taken care of more, my heart breaks for people who feels how I’ve felt for years, hopeless, didn’t know what I have, people thought I wasn’t serious, doctors didn’t take my word.

I am in my third year now, did almost half of med school.It was hard, I had to learn a lot more than others, because I couldn’t hear everything in classes and because of that at home the lessons weren’t clear at all.Last year was hard, I lost my scholarship beucause of that, I don’t have time to work because I’m studying all day, my parents are trying to help me.We need money for the medical school fee, for my rent and I also need money to buy a special stethoscope for my hearing loss, I have exams in february and I need one, but I can’t hear with a normal stethoscope, and that was the only one I could afford...all my money goes for food.It’s everything I want to be, I want so much to help people around me, to accomplish my dream..If I’ll get some money left I’ll also go to therapy, because my anxiety is getting bad, I would also want to take my mother to therapy, I think we both need it.

It’s the first time I’m doing something like this, my diagnosis is neurosensory hearing loss, I have hearing aids but anyone with hearing loss can say that they don’t make you like before, they help, but not enough..If anyone wants more info feel free to contact me.I can tell more in private, I am a little shy here, but thank you for reading my story.I am studying in Romania, Bucharest.