Help me be myself again

Like many people, I've always struggled with loving myself and my body. Ever since I was a teen, I would always feel insecure about not looking acceptable.

During college, I started working out. I became confident, healthy, happy, and overall a more enjoyable person to be around. Being fit allowed me to have more energy and to be more positive. For the first time in a long time, this was a period where I truly believed I loved myself and who I was. I was loving myself by taking care of myself.

After college, I started working to support myself as my family couldn't anymore. Work exhausted me, and bills drained me. I only had time for work, housework, and occasional groceries.

No more gym. No more outings. No more shopping.

I lost muscle and started gaining weight. Along with that, I lost my confidence. I started hating myself for not having more money to go to the gym, or more energy to find more work. I hated myself for surviving without actually living.

I miss who I was and I know I can still be that person.

I know my story is not heartbreaking or something to cry over. But my story is something a lot of people can understand and relate to. This is my middle class reality as much as it is yours.

So please, help me find myself again.

All funds will be used to get a gym membership and afford gym gear. Nothing more. Any amount will be of great help.