This is a very delicate dituation and i hate to beg for help but i really feel hopeless.
I am 30 years old and i have 2 children. I've been trying to get out of this toxic and abusive situation for a while but i never had the courage to do so. I felt i could keep trying to make things good. But this time things have gone too far. After an argument my partner hit me a few times in my head. I was holding my crying baby and my toddler also heard me screaming and came into the room crying.
It's not even the first time it happens. The first time he hit me was when my first baby was 3 months old. I was affraid to leave or tell anyone because he told me he would kill me if i leave. He hit me again pretty bad when my son was 1 year old. Same situation, too affraid to leave or tell anyone. I think it's needless to say the terror i was living in. My partner is tge kind of person tgat wants to control everyone and and gets angry very easy and very bad. For a while he didn't hit me anymore and i thought it wouldn't happen again if i am carefull enough.
I think you will wonder why i had the second baby. Well...i had no hope of ever leaving and i wanted my son to have a sibling.
And i think this came as a good thing.being pregnant for tge second time made me stronger and made me want even more to fight for my peace. So i started telling him i want to leave. At first he did not accept this at all, then he said i can go but leave our son with him. Of course i didn't. When secand baby was 3 months old i decided to just leave. When he saw i was really serious about this he started begging and promising he will change. I was stupid enough to belive. Ever since then i kept waiting for the change but things could only be good for a few days at a time.
And then a few days ago it happened again. He hit me. Now it's just enough for me. I don't want this life anymore and i don't want my children to live in a family like this.
With 2 kids it's not really an option to go live with friends and my parents are both working and living abroad. I can't leave the country with the children yet.
My parents are heloing me financially a little but i can't ask for much cause life is not easy for them eighter.
I need some money to pay a rebt for a few months so i can sort things out and see what to do next. Having a baby i can't work full time. I work at home making handmade natural cosmetics but i'm only selling to friends now. I plan on making all the legal papers to be able to open an online shop so i can pay for rent and food without help from others.
So...are you willing to help me and my children make a new start?
Please send me your questions if you need more detailes about our situations.
Thank you with all my heart for your time!