I wish I could write under my real name but can't. Live in an anti-gay country which would turn on me if I ever came out. Also live in an unsafe environment that has left me fearful and upset. If there was any other way for me to get out and go on with my life I would. But I am asking for your help so I can leave. Hopefully will be able to better update this letter soon. But for now I need to be careful.