Being youngest in the family, I had the privilege to be the first in the family attaining an overseas university education among my four other siblings. I am halfway through pursuing my Bachelors in Computer science degree from the University of Hong Kong, keeping always in mind the expectations and hopes that my family has put up on me.
I am faced with a lot of challenges since the day I first shared my aspiration to my dad to get a good tertiary education abroad because of the limited opportunity in my home country Bangladesh. Despite him being 62 years old then with Type 2 Diabetes and still at work to support us as the only earning member of our family, he never said no and always held my back for what I wanted to achieve in life. Bearing in mind the costs ahead (HK$150 000 a year for 4 years) and a monthly income of HK$20000 of my dad, I have decided I will wait an year after I graduate from High school in 2012 so my dad would be better prepared, financially. I do feel selfish for being so needy but all I wanted is to give back to them and I believe a good education is the key. I have been working hard to pay off my accommodation and meals since I have embarked on my journey in 2013 and even took a year gap from university last year and did an internship so that I can help my dad pass this hurdle for the remaining 2 years. I have visited home only once in these 3 years and really was looking forward to the summer of 2016 for some quality time with my family amid all these hardships.
I scheduled to fly from Hong Kong on the 18th of July 2016, but had to redo my tickets after I got the grieving news on the morning of 16th July that my dad has passed away after a brain hemorrhage from Hypertension and cardio-respiratory failure. I could see him before his burial but at that moment in life I am filled with a lot of regrets and only wished I had gone back home a day earlier so I could at least hug my dad upon my arrival or never went abroad and put so much pressure on my family at all. My dad never shared his worries or his health issues just to relieve us from more worries. Inside I am numb but I am still trying to give all the comfort I can to my mom and I am fortunate to spend the last 2 months with her and my family.
I wanted to end this egocentric career dream of mine but only when my Mom emphasized on how my Dad always used to feel proud of me for my aspirations, I decided I will complete the remaining 2 years of my degree by whatever means. We've all made mistakes in our life. It is regrettable that I can no longer correct some of my own, but here's hoping someday I can help someone else correct theirs. The huge expenses overloading on my family is putting me on a lot of stress and I am trying whatever means possible so I can get through this year.
I don't need any more than the amount indicated, and have therefore attempted to raise the exact amount that I need for this year. We have also been borrowing extensively from our friends and family. My semester fees are due on the 30th of September, or my enrolment will be cancelled. Please help me continue my university journey?