Help is needed to survive

I am Shawkat Hossain Babu, I am 38 years old. I live in Bangladesh. The name of my city is Khulna. The name of my police station is Daulatpur. The name of the village is Pabla. I am living a very hard life. In the family, I have two children, my wife. A relationship with my parents is not good for the wife because being kind to me Doesn't help. Besides they are telling me to leave the house. I do not understand what to do at the moment. There is a loan from which the installment amount is $100 per month. I bought a TV. I was supposed to pay $50 per month but I can't pay for it in any way. I always hear a lot about the loan installment.Sometimes I feel like committing suicide but it is not possible for two children. Now I need a minimum of $5000 to survive, to pay off my debts, and run my own household with a grocery store. If not, there will be no speed except death