Help. I need clothes. (My cry for help)

Hello! My name is Alexandra and I from Russia. I am 18. I do not know English well, but I will try to describe my cry for help. This is my last chance.

My mother died when I was 4 years old. And dad left me after her death. All my life I lived with my grandmother. We were engaged in animal rescue. I supported my grandmother in this. But then we started scandals. Because grandma brought home more and more animals. We lived in a one-room apartment and it was impossible to be there. Then I got depressed and self-harm. Then bulimia and I stopped eating. I lost 30 lbs. But grandmother was still only important animals. When I was 16 she wrote a waiver from me and it was a big blow. I cried a lot and thought that I would die ...

After that, my relatives took me away and for some time I lived with them. At 17, I left my city because I suffered a lot there. I flew over 1700 miles from there. I had to leave friends and relatives.

Since August 11, 2017 I have been living in the Russian city of Kaliningrad, between Lithuania and Poland. I am completely alone here.

Now I am in despair. Because I have a lot of problems. My depression is not retreating. I recently found out that my grandmother owed $ 15,000. She said that our apartment can take bailiffs. I started to panic. I even thought about selling a kidney and wrote an advertisement. But I'm very scared, because I'm still so young ...

I also have to rent an apartment for $ 264 per month. Recently, I got a job as a sales assistant. I work for 11 hours and give all my strength to work. Salary $ 202 per month.

My main problem is that in 7 months I lost another 30 lbs and now I have no clothes left. Even underwear ... It's a shame to write about it. I never thought that this could happen to me. I have to hide it from everyone.

Therefore, I ask for help from you! I really need money for clothes. And I'm even ready to take your old clothes with a package.

My dream is just to live. Live like a normal person. To have food and clothing. Recently, my hands are dropping and I feel very bad. If I'm at a dead end. Even tranquilizers do not help. It seems that there is no way out.

I want to enjoy life, I want to benefit the world, help those in need, save animals. I want to finish my education, but so far I have no opportunity to pay.

And I always dreamed of becoming a photographer, because my eyes notice everything. They had to cry a lot, but now they are able to see what not everyone sees.

I will be grateful for any help. Each your cent is important for me. Thanks

My address: Russia, Kaliningrad city, Elblongskaya street 35, apartment 7. Postal code 236039 if you want to send a parcel. I will gladly accept old clothes or an old camera.

Thank you in advance. You are my last hope.