My name is Salvador Gayola Jr, PWD psychosocial state, Person Living with HIV, solo parent Father of 2 Boys. I am from Island of Oriental Mindoro Philippines. What if I die, Who will take care my kids welfare?
Wayback 2013, since day one I came to know I am HIV positive everything change fast. I suffer blindness occurrences, and it drives me in deep fear. Then one by one comes a new illness like skin rashes, allergies, and muscle fatigue. Diseases haunts me, I couldn't sleep, slowly I get weak and even lose my appetite, my body becomes submissively accepts the fact that I am dying soon. The first 2 years was like my life in hell, I strongly struggle endenials, self stigma and the so much fear from the unknown, I fear death. Having my bank savings I'll go through self medication and experimentation. The internet has a lot to offer claiming cures etc. I tried injectables anti virus, immune booster etc but to no avail and left my bank accounts emptied.
I planned to commit suicide but I didn't succeed. Something extraordinary happened last February 17, 2015. I am alone at home in my deathbed situation I have this courage to give myself a rest. I am on the act of poisoning myself when suddenly television opened, The Preacher read aloud "See now that I, even I, am he, and there is no god with me: I kill, and I make alive; I wound, and I heal: neither is there any that can deliver out of my hand. (Deuteronomy 32:39)
Immediately after the preacher reads the verse the television stop. That moment I felt like im going to explode I burst out in crying, I was like a kid crying out loud. I said Father sorry please forgive me of my sin, I thought killing myself is the way I can attain rest and peace. But Your words prohibit me from commiting suicide so please help me go through this I said while still my tears overflowing.
I realised that the moment while im crying I was holding already the bible and to my surprise the very first page I had opened was at Deuteronomy 32:39, this was the very words have read of the Preacher. Truly the word of God revive my faith instantly. The Whole next long hours I came across reading the book of Isaiah 38:1-21, the story of King Hezsekiah who has the dreadful tumors been healed by God through the herb God cause Him to be healed.
The Story of King Hezekiah strongly inspires me and keeps me motivated at all times of my sickness. Those are felt miracles, consoling, comforting peace.
I then on started to eat a healthy diet, and started taking up my antiretrovirals meds ontime. Some particular natural nutritional food Supplement also helps me in boosting my immune system. I was able to work again and my healing testimony bridges me to advocate Organic way of Living , it paved a way also for me to survive and earn. I was good at direct selling but then only when my health is in good position.
2019, my immune system fails me. April of this year I had measles, the effect was overlwhelming. The fever, chills and headache is deadly. Though I survive measles its rashes leaves wounds and the wounds becomes worst, inflamed itchy and the feels like burning sensation.
Infections fast affects my body. My wounds severely infected my both legs and thigh which cause me to stop working again. The problem is that my capital had been depleted due to my medications, for more than 5 months I have no income. I was stuck at home because of my infections. Inspite of my illness I still taking chances to earn through online selling reselling someones products . The experience for me was familiar scenario. I already have the courage to go through health trials. My hope and comfort is in God.
I now hoping that I can get back soon to recovery again. My Doctor advised me to prioritized my daily Nutritional support for a matter of 6 Months immune boosting through a healthy nutrients diet which are too costly. I need a healthy foods and nutritional support for now to regain my normal health strength. Not just only my health situation I still want to sell online like something that would help me raise money for me and my kids daily needs. Livelihood and Nutritional support for my health recovery is our urgent need now.
Each day I wake up without income and still in my sickbed I felt helpless, I regretting the chances I misses providing for my kids food allowance, school expenses and a simple treats to them outside I can't do a thing now due to my circumstances.
I am a Parent, I still want to get well and be productive again so that I could still feed and provide my Kids needs. Please help me get through my disease and poverty. Your donation small or big amount could saves us and can help me back productive again functioning with dignity in the community we live.
I thank you all so much. May God touch your hearts. God bless