During my childhood at the age of 7, while most children run around, have fun with their friends, joyfully shouting and playing.
I lost my hearing on my left ear.
I was told by my mother, during my infancy, I had a high fever which led to my loss of hearing.
Because I was too young, it was hard for me to notice that I had lost one of my hearing.
One night, my mother asked me to call my grandpa. I used my right ear to make the call. After making the call.
I asked my mother.
“Ma, how come people can use only one ear?”
And she responded me
“People use 2 ears dear.”
She was surprised, that I asked such question, and asked me why I asked that question.
And I told her,
“I can hear with only one ear ma.”
That’s when my mom first noticed that I couldn’t hear with my left ear, and I learned that God gave me two ears but can hear with only one.
This was one of the heartbreaking times I had to go through, but I tried to stay positive and be thankful that I can hear with the other ear.
Both my parents worked so hard to help me get hearing aids, but it wasn’t easy because it costed too much. It wasn’t easy for me but I bet it was more difficult for my parents because seeing me and taking few years to realize that I had this disability.
Just like what every parent would do, my mother brought be to the doctor.
The doctor recommended my mom to get me hearing aids. Because I was young, I didn’t know how this would affect my hearing later on. At first, I didn’t want to admit and get hearing aids because I didn’t want others to make fun of me at school, or how people would see me.
Many years passed and I was attending college that time.
It was during my 3rd semester in college.
It was a normal day and I was attending class. I always had difficulty understanding the lessons because I couldn’t hear the lectures clearly from afar, so I thought I was just in a bad condition because my hearing was worse on that day.
I went back and slept in early that day.
On the next day, that was the day.
That was the day I’ve completely lost my hearing.
I thought everything was just quiet and I woke up to early. It wasn’t. I lost both of my hearing on that day.
Only God knew what I felt that time.
Most of my close friends knew that I have a hearing problem, but they didn’t knew that it was getting worse.
Because, I had to continue my studies. I had to shrug everything off and continue attending class.
It was very difficult for me, but my friends were there to comfort me and support me.
Despite their support and comfort, I wanted to give up because I still had 2 semesters left, and it was all too overwhelming for me.
I couldn’t hear anything the lecturer was talking about during class.
In frustration, on that evening, I was alone in my room, and in the dark, I cried in the dark alone.
I pushed everyone away from me because it was too hard for me to accept everything and place my friends in difficult situations, I didn’t want to make it hard for them.
Few days have passed and it was getting more difficult for me, so I had to call my parents.
I’m originally from Sibu but was studying in Kuching. I called them, but I couldn’t hear anything, I tried so hard to hear and raise the loudspeaker volume to the max.
I could only hear little sounds but I knew my mom was crying, we all cried that night. My mom prayed really hard and tried to support me the best that she can.
Seeing my mom working so hard to support me gave me the strength.
I tried to think positive. During class, I wrote down all my notes by copying notes from my classmates.
I read everyday and studied as much as I could.
Imagine studying with both of your ear closed. It was one of the most hardest part of my life.
I studied really hard and surprisingly passed all my courses for that semester.
My mom worked really hard and saved up enough to get me basic hearing aid. Since the hearing aid was too expensive my mom could only afford to buy me one piece of hearing aid for my right ear.
On my 4th semester, that’s when I started hearing again. Though it was only my right ear, I was so thankful that I could hear little by little again.
I finished my associate degree and now I’m working as a contractual employee, I try hard to work but because of my hearing, It was hard for me to find a job and people to take me in.
I went to the hospital to check my hearing progress and the doctor told me, my hearing has deteriorated and I need to get a better one, because we could only afford the basic hearing aid.
I try to work as hard as I could for the present and for the future but sometimes, my efforts are not enough because capabilities are limits because of my hearing.
My mother worked so hard to help me get this basic hearing aids, but our family is on a tight budget to pay off the dues, my sisters education fees and living expenses.
This is my last hope, please help me hear again.
The hearing aid’s costs 7500, but this is a huge amount of money for our family though we work hard, it would take us years to pay off this amount.
This is my last wish. I want to hear again so, I can work better and support my family. Both my parents are old and still working to support us and pay off the dues.
Your help would be highly appreciated no matter what amount it would be.
Thank you for spending your precious time to read my story.