I know it my sound foolish that i am making fundraiser even i am not sick or life is not in danger. But i will still give it a try.. my name is Meng,35 years old woman in a man's body.
I remember when i was 8 year old, i'm always praying before I fall asleep that when i wake up in the morning, I will have a vagina like all my friends have. since i was at young at age,i know i'm a girl. yes,i'm really a girl a woman a lady. I have a lot of friends,we play all day... i never had a fear of discrimination,maybe because i'm young and free. i never know what kind of life will be when i grow old.
When i was a teen everything change,fear comes into my life. Rejection,discrimination is coming. most people around me call me gay, i really hate it because i'm not gay. I'm woman. but i manage to stay silent and kept it in my heart and use it as a strength. People hurting me physically and emotionally but i still didn't fight back. Because i don't have a courage o maybe i'm just a coward. I'm still praying every night that one day when i wake up,i will have a vagina. dreaming makes me happy, i always imagining that I'm a girl in a girl's body. that i have a long hair,wearing a nice dress..something like that.. I'm so happy...very happy... but when imagination stop,and realized that I'm still living in a different body and living in a cruel world.
When i was in college,I started my transition without a doctor supervision. I'm self medicating and taken birth control pills even its risky. I never cut my hair and let it grown and grow. My family accepted me,i never had any problem with them. Because they know since i was a child that I'm not a man that I'm woman. they just let me be in myself. They understand me,and I'm so thankful to have them in my life. i didn't finish my college because of financial problem. I tried to look for a work,but not hope for trans and most specially for undergraduates.
Even no job I tried many things to earn money to help to support my family, joining many networking business,like Aim Global and FrontRow but dont have much hope to earn because i'm not good at recruiting or to convince other people to join. I participated also many investment scheme to believe that money will double or to grow more but ended-up being scammed. I'm doing also buy and sell products just like many other do.
For now im babysitting my nephew, the children of my cousin. My cousin is working,and i need babysit to help her. even i cant help my family financially,atleast I'm helping physically.
I'm 35 years old now and i dont know if my dream will come true or not or maybe it will come true when I'm 40 years old, 50 or 80 i really dont or maybe it will never happen anymore.
But i still have a hope that before i die, my dreams will come true.
Please help me to fulfill my dreams.. Please help me to have a vagina..
Please help me for Sex-reassignment Surgery in Thailand..
Thank you so much..
God bless us all..