Help for a fresh start

I hate that I have got myself into this situation and I hate asking for money but I’m running out of places to turn.

I have always prided myself on being independent, but have let myself sink in to a whole of debt and other problems. In the past I’ve done whatever I had to go get myself out of the mess, when my mother kicked me out and stole my money, I was homeless and spent 6 months sleeping on buses and in stations until I could work my way out of the mess. I thought I had turned things around but I’m failing.

Last year my very dodgy landlord illegally evicted me, because rent was a couple of weeks late. He trashed most of my possessions, I lost sentimental heirlooms from my grandmother who raised me until she died, everything of value went missing or was destroyed as he dumped it outside the flat in the middle of the night.

I found somewhere to live a few months later and I’m trying to get myself back on my feet, I have a full time job but in a low paid industry, I try and do as much self employed work as possible, try and fill every day off as much as possible, but it’s just not enough and it’s slowly killing me, but I was determined to keep pushing through.

However things changed even more so recently when I found out I was pregnant due to things failing. I am under a lot of pressure from its father to have a termination but having seen it on the scan I just can’t face it, it’s my child and I want to do what is best for it and I don’t believe ending it is what’s best for me or it, I know if I can get back on my feet I would give it everything I can, I know it will be hard, and it is probably not the most sensible option but I will do whatever I can to make sure it has the life it deserves. But to do that I need a little help as it’s going to be here faster than I can get out of this mess myself, I need to cover the every day basics and find us somewhere decent to live. I hope that one day I can be in a position to pay it forward as I build on any help I receive and help others in the same way.

Thank you for reading, especially if you made it all the way to the end, sorry for the ramble, and thank you from the bottom of my heart for any help.