the brutal yet beautiful truth ;
I am a 21 year old single momma trying to make something of myself & failing drastically . If i cant find some kind of miracle im afraid i will have to give up my studies and work full time , which would result in more debt from student loans . . I have always worked hard , since I was fourteen years old I supported myself . I worked two jobs throughout high school , yet I still managed to graduate on time and receive multiple awards . I paid for my own grad dress by getting a third job , and my parents didn't even show up to see me in it . I learnt young that people hurt you , expecially the ones that get close to you . I built a wall and nobody could tear it down .. anytime someone tried , I took off . I was a gypsy , I had absolutely nothing to tie me down .. when I was seventeen , after graduation I moved to a new town , started two new jobs and very quickly I fell into the wrong crowd . I am proud to say that I am 714 days sober from the only thing I let destroy that wall that I had built so high to protect me ; methanphetamine . I lost myself so quickly , I didn't even realize how fast it ripped through my fortress I had spent years building . I would be dead or in jail if it wasn't for a late period and doctor telling me I was pregnant . My baby girl saved my life . I moved away . I started over . I am in college to become a legal assistant and I'm doing it because she desurves to have the very best in life . I didn't want to work three jobs waiting tables just to make ends meet and miss out on so much of her life . I have credit card debt up to my ears , so a loan is out of the question . I got grants from the government but wasn't enough to cover everything , I work part time at a local pub , I am really trying . About two months ago my wisdom teeth got infected so bad I couldnt swallow and they were worried that it would spread to my heart and they decided to remove my bottom two wisdom teeth . The cost was $300 for xrays and $893 for surgical extraction of two teeth . All the money I had saved was gone in a blink of an eye and since then I have been trying to find any other way to make ends meet . I have two choices , either I drop out of college and start working full-time , or I find some miracle somewhere , so I'm trying to find one here . I have lived on the street before but that is just not an option anymore . My daughter is my everything . I have no help from her father and I have asked anyone else I can think of . I am over due on my rent ($500), and I haven't paid my babysitter($350) Right now any amount of money would help . Ideally if I could get enough to make it to my next dispursment day (October 1st) that would eliminate all stress and let me focus on my studies and little girl . I appreciate anyone taking the time to read this & pray that someone somewhere reads this and would like to help .