my name is Eda, I am just 16 month old. I live in Istanbul Turkey with my mom (her name is Nueng and she’s from Thailand) and my dad (his name is Faruk and he’s from Turkey).
At the first sight I look like an ordinary half european half asian girl but I still cannot walk or even stand on my foots, cannot talk even one word like Mom or Dad, I do not react if my parents call my name (I guess I am too busy with other intresting things), I dont like eye or body contact… I guess those behaviors are no ordinary because my parents brought me a few weeks ago to a child psycholog. The lady Psycholog made some weird tests with me and I did not like it. After those tests she talk to my parents and what she said made my parents cry. I think I hear something like I am an autistic kid. I dont know what that is, means or what it makes to me but what my parents heared from that lady made them very sad and cry.
The last few weeks where so tiring to me and my parents. We visited many different Hospitals and met a lot of Doctors or Professors and nearly after every visit my parents looked very sad and had tears in their eyes. Oh by the way I think I heared on most visits the same word “Autistic”. What is this and why it makes my parents sad. I dont know I guess I am just an ordinary girl.
By the way my Mom is pregnant and soon we will get a little baby. I am not sure if I am happy to get a baby brother or sister because I dont know what that means to me. I just hope that this little baby dont make my parents more sad than they already are because of me. But should make it financial very hard to my father to provide everything. I dont know what financial means but I think my dad work too hard to pay for everything because sometimes I see him coming home very tired.
Normally my dad had a car and drove me arround or to doctor visits but now we drive just with bus or taxi. I guess my dad had to sell the car because all those visits where very expensive and those docs or profs requested too much Money from my dad. Why they need to be so greedy just to check what is wrong with me. I do not understand that.
I heard my parents talked that I need to go to a special school with special teachers and need to get a special education for a very long time. That education may help me to live as much as possible a normal life. A special therapy over the years for us all should make our life more easy and helps us to communcate and understand each other. They talked that the government provided schools or therapies for kids like me arent enough and that I must get educated from a special school. I am not happy with that because I dont wanna make my parents life harder then it already is.
My Mom and Dad always protect me, always smile and talk nice to me and I always feel that they love me very much. All those smiles, hugs and kisses what I get from them let me feel very loved. But sometimes I feel like I hear them crying in the night after I go to sleep. I guess they cry secretly because they dont want me to see or hear that. I love my proud parents.
I am sorry if I made you sad with what I had to tell but I had to tell it because I wanted to find a way to reach some good people all over the World who have a big heart and can help my parents to provide the necessary therapy, medicine and education I am going to need for a very long time of my life. I hope all of the good people who read my story are going to help my parents as much as they can.
I believe in the good heart in all of you. Thank you very much and god bless you all.
PS: Updates about me will follow