Heidi v Alcoholism – Hope Valley style

I am trying to raise money to go to rehab at Hope Valley and also have enough money to pay my bills while I am gone.  I have struggled since 2012 after having 6 1/2 years sobriety and relapsing.  Since that date I have been unable to put together more than 5 days sober at a time.  This has almost killed me several times - and I don't want to die!  I have SO much to be grateful for.  A beautiful son that I adore and that adores me - he is truly one of the best human beings I have known in 41 years.  I have a great job - I have lots of people that love and care about me.  I have a big fatso cat named Weezer that has saved my life more times than he knows.  My point is this - I WANT TO LIVE!  And not just live - but thrive and grow and live out loud and exude the sunshine that lives in my core.  And help other women feel empowered and loved - help them help themselves.  But I can't do it with meetings - I have tried and tried and tried.  More than 30 times I have walked back in, committed to stopping and was drunk a few days later.  Hope Valley is an all woman treatment facility and I want to go somewhere where there are no distractions like boys or any other substitute I can use to to take the focus off myself.  But I need your help.  I am simply not financially able to do this mself.  And to just throw all this online for the world to see hopefully shows you how desperately I want the help.  I promise I am a worthwhile investment.  I have to believe that - and hopefully you do too.  Any support would be unbelievable and life saving.  Thanks for taking the time to read my story. X X