HAPPY CHRISTMAS FOR MY CHILDREN

Helpless is one word I have never wanted to use,That is what I am right now...

Please read,please hep,please. I have three children. Age 6,8 and 12.I always had a job until I became ill.We had a nice home,happy life. I was married for 12 years. Married to this wonderful person. When I became ill with cancer,everything turned upside down. My husband was very supportive at first.I have seen changes slowly.First, he became distant, then angry for no reason. Then, he was drinking.One day he came home and hit me over an argument over children's clothes being messy.I couldn't lift a finger that day, I had treatment and treatments makes you very tired.I was so surprised that day my husband of 12 years hit me! He has never done it before.He was the most gentle person. I haven't told anyone.After all, I have my pride,my family's pride.I hoped he would not do it again.But he did.He apologised every time. He was going through depression I think.He was unable to cope with my illness,children,work.He became a different person to person I know.

I took him to doctors to seek help.Violence continued.He was getting angry with my children.He was shouting a lot.

My children my little girl became withdrawn and my son really upset.They were going to bed early,so they don't see him when he came home. One day he came home and told us to leave the house.I tried to calm him down but he wouldn't have any of it. I was scared of him. I grabbed anything I could and went to my mothers flat.My mother lives in one bedroom house.She lives by herself and she lives on retirement money. I have been living there with my three children.They are so sweet and innocent.I keep telling them everything will be ok,but so hard to cope with an illness and stress.I have applied for help from government which is going to take sometime.And housing, even longer as we have a roof over our head,We are not totally homeless so they are taking their time.My husband lost the house we lived in.He couldn't pay the rent.So we have nowhere to go.

I go to supermarkets around 6 o'clock so I can get reduced food.I never thought I would be in this situation. I feel helpless. I am trying start a new life also very ill.

Christmas? What Christmas? I absolutely have no way to do Christmas. We don't even have Christmas tree.I can't afford any presents.

Firstly, we need some money to cheer them up and have as normal as possible Christmas.Then I need to get somewhere to live.I don't need much for Christmas,just enough to get through.I then need to rent a place where they can be stable.

Never say what I am,think what can happen in your life,anything can happen and we all need some support sometime in our lives. I am not even able to think but I have to keep going.

Please help me