getting some study fund

hello . good day everyone . I want some funding for my study purpose , I read in aeronautical engineering 6th semester . I am not a poor boy . my father give me all expenses. what I need . we have 4 brother and 3 sister I am elder . everything was going fine , then suddenly something happened , my father was died and me and my family down into a major crisis . in my family my father only is capable to earn . after him I am responsible for that .. but I am still a student . it's really hard to tell you how much bigger responsibly suddenly come in my head . I tried for suicide twice of time but then I think if I died what goes in my family . in this situation I need some support . my dream is to become a astronaut and researcher and serve myself for invent something good for future mankind. if somebody want's to help me i give my paypal and my bank account .

thanks for giving me sometime to listen my story . and thinks for the help :)