Hi my name is jun jie and I’m turning 19 this year the reason why I’m starting this fund is because currently I’m suffering from gender dysphoria since when i was around 10-11 that was the first time i started crossdressing and till this day the thought of changing my gender won’t go away it’s stuck on my mind 24/7 for the past 8-9 years. Whenever i wake up the first thing that came into my mind was to change my gender which causes me to break down and wish that i could go back to sleep and never wake up. I’m always thinking to myself why am i always thinking about this when i just wake up can’t i once just don’t even think about it but actually it’s not that I can’t that is my true identity and slowly i accepted it but it still causes me to think about it all the time which is making my depression worst as day goes by. Okay i know many of you will ask why don’t you go and look for a job? Currently right now I’m looking for a part time job and starting school soon I can’t be working full time since i have school right and that will take me a long period of time before i have the money and it’s not easy for me to find a job as i have visible tattoo especially in my country where society are more judgemental that’s also one of the reason. Also in my country all male have to enter the army it’s a must which will take up 2 years of my time and once I’m out I’m planning on going to the university which than i could only work part time too which will take me almost till my late 20’s if i were to have the money. On a side note I’m also suicidal mainly because of my gender and I don’t know how long more i could last. I would wish to live as someone i truly am before i leave this world. I really hope you guys could help me on this journey i really would appreciate it on improving my mental health and live as who i was suppose to be thank you so much!!