Hello, my name is Autumn, although legally as of right now my name is Darius. My story may not be all that different from what you may have heard before but I still believe it has importance. As a child I never really knew who I really was but I did know that something was wrong; and looking back on the few moments I still remember, as a child, trying on female underwear, spinning around in white dresses, and secretly playing with certain dolls amongst the other toys in my toybox, I think it's safe to say that I wasn't what you may call "normal". And I knew that other people wouldn't accept me for whatever I was because who in their right mind would, being amongst a church-going family? In ninth grade I was fed up with living as someone I wasn't comfortable being. During my early teenage years where I became socially detached from everyone around me, I began to commit self harming actions against myself to the point where I had left, and still have, a six inch scar on my thigh. I didn't know who to turn to and I didn't want to leave this earth without finding some sort of answer as to who I really was so I told my mother that I was suicidal; that something was wrong and I couldn't deal with it any longer. She sent me to psychiatrist after psychiatrist and the best she could think of was believing that I was gay. But I wasn't attracted to men so something was still not right and after a couple years of false diagnosing, anti-depressants, and skipping high school I dropped out and did a little bit of researching online. After days of countless web searching I discovered the name for what I am; a transgender. Everything made sense after researching the term and other people's experiences. Yes I have read and been told that people have been murdered for coming out as transgender but I was already dead in my eyes before realising this was a thing; a real thing! Now I am 22 and have received a letter from a proper psychiatrist and I'm about to undergo Hormone Replacement Therapy. My insurance is willing to pay up to 90% of my transgender related surgeries however I still need help on paying for the rest of the surgery costs. If you can find it within your heart to help a stranger like me finally begin to live their life after many years of struggling then I would be so grateful. Thank you for reading my story.