Freedom of credits and banks

when I was 18-20, I going to live in big city. Too many opportunities, chooses and I take 1 credit on “fast money credit” 800 euros, after, because I couldn’t have this money to pay back, I taked new credit, and after new and new, to close olds credits.

In last year I haved 10 000+ € money need to pay banks and other companys. And they closed my bank account(set a limit 470 euro/per month and whit this money I need pay for flat, buy some food and etc.

I paid now almost 5000€ back, but they also have intres and I need 5400 to close this story.

I’m tired, I’m very tired to live like homeless guy, because I can’t even buy new jacket or even used, because I don’t have enought money.

In March I also thinked to kill myself, because this story continue many years, but I tried to find power to live.

And if you can- help me.

I know, that its all my mistakes, but I feel, that I’m almost empty of lifepower.

Thanks that you readed it and sorry for mistakes