Freedom

For the longest time I've been dealing with depression and abuse from my family. I just want to find a way to just run away. Most might think that what I'm trying to do is pointless or not a good thing but you would need to be in my shoes to understand how much I've endured for so long and I just can't take it anymore. I try to save every cent I can from working and it's never enough to finally go away from a place that doesn't even feel like home. My hard earned money always taken away from people whom I'm supposed to trust and then ridiculed as someone who can never save money even if it's to help with family expenses. I've been called many things ugly, fat, useless, worthless, thief, liar, even told that I should have never been born by my own siblings and mother while they were in a mood. I never once said anything and just took it hoping that maybe just maybe they'd change... That was since I was 9 and I am now 24 years old. Yes I still live in a house near my family and no it's not a choice.. have I tried to move away farther from my family yes but I could never save enough because of them. I work from 7 to 4 but I always go home later than that because I want to show people that I'm not useless...I'm not worthless... I try my damn hardest everyday and I am not asking for much and I'm not even asking for something for free... I'm willing to even commission poems, stories or artwork for every donation... Because I've learnt that nothing is free not even kindness from my family... I'm not asking much... Just asking for help... Thank you if you've read till the end of my rant... I've just been bottling up everything up until now... And it's just tiring and I just wish I could end it all sometimes... But I'm trying.. I don't want to give up yet..