This is going to be a long one so better be ready.
This is by no means any sort of joke, every single word is typed with an open heart. If you experience any kind of discomfort reading this remember that someone out there loves and cares about you, just reach out to them, give them a hug, tell them you love them back, after all...you give a little love and it all comes back to you.
Well...where should all of this even start? Excuse me for this unstructured mess this is all written at 02:00 am (gosh its already 06:00) in a new country i have no clue how i came in the 1st place.So my name is Nikos and this is my story.
Being born in the era when humans didnt invent the "fake-smile" yet, an invention that if i had a dollar for every time is was being used by someone i wouldnt even be here, in fact i would buy a time-machine so i could go back in time and buy Bitcoin so i could use it for pizzas and have a massive laugh over it.
Having being raised by two beautiful people in a family of 5 and dogs,yeah..lots of dogs. I mean how sad could you even be when you were getting up early in the morning just to watch your favourite cartoon, when your were waiting for your dad to come from work and give you some candy, when you were counting the days for Christmas so you could get your gift under the Christmas tree? Do you even remember how happy you felt when you got your hands on your 1st console, when you got the controller from your sibling and tried playing yourself, when you bought the things you most loved with your own money for the first time or the excitement when your favourite movie hit the channel?
Having worked on a multi-billion franchise for 11 hours per day on average just to preserve the top notch quality of your services without even hearing a single word of thankfulness just because you are a number and...who can really thank numbers? Losing friends because the word friends sometimes translates to trends, getting hit by serious illness and the worst part..it doesnt even have the guts to hit you, it hits your loved ones and when this goes away you feel powerfull but yet you still fall in the same hole you fell before because thats what being human is all about.
And of course the tip of the iceberg:Wars,Economic Crisis, Debts, GoT Ending, Pandemic, Vaccines
The real question is...do you even remember how happiness feels or did you lose it somewhere around those words...Well in my case..i really dont..maybe i get a glimpse of it sometimes but it goes out faster than the time i last in bed so i guess its not going pretty well. Depression is one of the simplest words to describe an ilness that most people cant even describe in words yet its the most complex one, its like John Cena, you cant see it but its there,its the first thing you feel when you wake up and the last thing that tells you good night before you sleep. For me its a spore that sprang and got some long black leaves filled with anxiety within my chest when i was most vulnerable and now i became ONE with it. Its a flower that its main source is negativity because your brain thinks its the right one. What would have happened if your hand started to hurt for as long as you remember? You would have gone to the doctor you will say, well imagine i big giant flower/tree monster grew inside you, would you consider going to the doctor?
So what does my life and depression have to do with this campaign you may ask after reading more words than the pi decimals.I have grown with a passion(which i have burried more times than i could count) over video games for as long as i can remember, not the ones that rule the world at the moment(dances over wooden floors) but the ones that you would give everything in order to experience them for the 1st time,pieces of art like "The legend Of Zelda", "Final Fantasy", "Super Mario Clasics", " Grand Theft Auto", "God Of War" and so on. I have grown up to the start of youtubers like pewdiepie, markiplier,ksi,theradbrad as well as streamers like our fellow legendary brother reckful and Asmongold.
My vision and dream is to become a content creator and create a Social - Gaming Network where people will always be able to talk about small or long lasting problems like depression while having fun with dedicated streaming sessions. I want each and everyone to have a voice of their own even when they think that talking about it is their last resort. Love is the easiest painkiller until receiving professional help and the best part is that its free.
The amount of money asked is approximately the cost for a high-end streaming + gaming setup without including anything extra. Any donation is appreciated from the bottom of my dark flo...heart.Maybe one of those days i will buy a car for my dad or maybe use it all on dogecoin...until then i should find a cosy bench to sleep because the downfall is gonna be rough.
Or maybe i dont get a single dollar but someone with a similar problem to mine and yours decides to change paths and seek help,and that decision is the most precious thing in this world.