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hi everyone Im aldrin im 20 years old from Philippines . I FUNDRAISING myself and my family because of our financial problem interms in foods and the study of my siblings. When i was 5 years old my mom lefted us together with my younger sister and my dad died when i was 14 years old . But before my dad died he has a 3 children with the other woman .. then only my grandmother who taking care of us while were growing. i have 4 siblings and 2 halfbrothers and 1 half sister and i am the eldest brother. its so hard to live without parents because theres no one who is going to support you and help you. my grandmother is getting and i dont want to lost her i dont want to get her sick. Thats why when i graduated in highschool i decided to go to the city to find work so that i can proceed to college . its hard to be separate to my siblings and to my grandmother but i have no choose, i did that because i have dreams for them .

and i was lucky because i get hired in a fast food ( jollibee) i worked and started saving money and sending money to my siblings and to my grandmother.. after 1 year i enrolled in college ( John Paul II College of Davao ) but i realized its not easy to a working student because i work in the morning and i study in the evening. and Its so hard budget my salary because i have to budget for my allowance, for my foods, for my fees in school and for sending money for my family :( in that makes me exausted. but suddenly i stopped studying in college due to small salary and cant help enough my needs and for my family ..

i can continue my study again if i have enough money for it but now im focusing my help to my family that needs my support . my contract in JOLLIEE was ended and im trying to find a new job but its hard to find job. I always get sick thats why i cant find work easily.

NOW my status is unemployed and my family are always asking me to give them to buy there foods :( but i have nothing to give them and they dont even know what is my situation here in the city. I eat only twice a day ,sometimes once a day and Drink alot of water so that it makes me full. sometimes i decided to attempt suicide but i realized that my family needs me ..

thats why i got here in gogetfunding trying to ask any help just only for our foods :( and i hope that theres someone who is going to help me and to my family . God is always for you to give more blessing of you guys . And i will be so thankful for that guys . I dont dont if how im going to pay it back but only comes on my mind is that i will be so thankful for your kindness and asking god to pour you more blessings in you .