Hey beautiful people,
my name is Jenny, I'm 28 years old, in this moment 38 weeks pregnant with my first baby and a single mum. Here is my story, why I'm asking for help:
In Juli last year I met the dad of my baby on the beautiful coast of Mexico. It happened that only 5 months later I got pregnant with my wonderful moonchild. It didn't just happened, you all know how babies come in our world. One night in October I was celebrating a new moon ceremony, wishing and asking the univers for a baby and so this amazing univers send me my child, which choose me to be her/his mummy (I still don't know if it's going to be a girl or a boy). Together we started this unbeliveable journey of pregnancy with many challenges to overcome, but also lots of intensiv and beautiful moments. A journey to myself, the strengh of my body, the female nature, selfcare and my true self - and literally - back to Germany.
While the connection to my baby is still growing every day, the biggest gift of all the pregnancy is that your growing so much working yourself forward step by step to become the best mummy for my moonchild, that I can. Thank you nature for giving us 10 months to prepare our mind, and thank you to our amazing bodies for creating, comforting and taking care of our babies.
In my pregnancy I first heard about Hypnobirthing. Before I never questioned the way we (,in the western world,) give birth now: usually in an hospital and lots of times with medical interventions. I read a lot of books and studies about natural birth and started to get this deep feeling that a natural birth in a calm, empowering enviroment, where my baby can take all the time it needs, would be the way I want to give birth. I started a class online that is preparing mums and dads to have stressfree and autonomous birth. Without telling you to much about the class, I encourage every mum- and dad to be, to think about the birth of their baby and prepare yourself well, because it does matter how we get born and birth can be a beautiful, empowering happening for the whole family; very different from the picture of birth in our minds created by our society.
So what do I need money for now?
After that amazing class that prepared me so well for the home birth of my baby, I talked to my coach that is also offering a one-to-one mentoring program, that includes 5 private sessions to resolve inner conflicts of the subconscious, again prepare yourself for the birth mentally and the time as a mum/dad and a personal 24/7 support.
As I said the class prepared me very well for the birth but to be honest I'm scared about everything that comes after. Being a single mum, not beeing "good enough" for my child, making mistakes, beeing a bad mum, beeing overwhelmed, beeing abad person in general. I'm trying to be very honest here about my fears and doubts without getting juged, encouraging other people to do the same. I guess part of these thoughts are totally normal but I understood that my fears are also connected to inner believes from my own childhood, that are mostly subconscious. I really want to break this circle now of inner believes that are probablly there for generations. I do not want my child to have the same doubts and inner believes about herself/himself. Instead I want to focus all this energy in a harmonic life with my child, full of joy, trust, happiness, dedication and love. And I do believe that I deserve this life too and that it's not something bad to invest in myself: because I'm worth it, we all are! We shouldn't feel bad for taking our needs seriously and thinking about ourselves. Because only if I feel good, if I love myself, I can make others feel good about themselves and spread more love all over all the world and help ours to find their own inner beauty.
I'm so thankful for flowing again with the energy of the univers, that is always giving me what I need, when I need it mostly. And I would be deeply thankful, if you would support me with my inner journey.
Sending lots of trust, strength, love and joy to every single one of you!
Love, Jenny and the future moonchild
I would have loved to write more about natural, autonomous birth and the online class I made, because it is sooo important how we get born and we can really make a big difference in the life our children and future generations by changing the way we see birth nowadays. If you like more informations pleasedon't hesitate to write me!