hi all ,
im joe , i used to always try to help and rech out to anyone that i felt that they needed any support of any kind
but now im in there situation , and i cant find any kind of support...
so here's the whole story
9 months ago i had a recording studio that i saved for , for a really long time and hard work ,
i was making music and singing covers, then on the 8th of jan i had an accident where my studio was burned to the ground , with every little piece of instruments and devices , and goes with it all the years and money that i had in it ,
it was a total breakdown , where i just sat there trying to desperately put the fire down , but i couldnt save one thing of it , and i got out with minor burns and a major scaphoid fracture that led to a surgery removing the joint and replacing it with medical nails and other stuff that till now i dont really understand ,
i lost hope , and every single night at the hospital i just sat there seeing the fire while its catching every thing like it was right there happening again ,
i got out , wasn't that good , i had to take treatment, both for my arm , and my depression
i got into depression , that many times was 2 seconds away from just taking me away
i wrote articles to vent out
i even made a fake instagram account at a time to vent out @lonelydepresse instagram.com/lonelydepresse
without anyone knowing that its me ,
i nearly killed my self and several time self-harmed my self leading to hospital care again
i just lost hope , nothing was there for me again,
what the hell should i live for?
what?, get back to working 3 jobs 7 days a week barely sleeping , getting sick off the pills that i ben takin to keep me awake ,
i just lost it all, and i wasnt going back to all that so i tried to take the easy path , wrote songs about it , but i got even more depressed when i realized that i dont have a place to record it , to let people know what im going through ,
had treatment and therapy for over couple months
then started working a 9 hour shift job again with low payment
starting from scratch
trying to build it all from scratch
bought a microphone , stand, a laptop
and started recording again low quality songs with cheap microphone
i started working two jobs again ,started saving again , even borrowed a phone to shoot a video at home
a black and white , low quality video
but trying to get through it all
music is the thing that brighten me up and its the way that i vent out
i dont trust people , and i dont like to vent out to the society that im in ,
i rather write it down and sing it
let others know that im here
that they are not alone going through it
that life will kick you down over and over again
sending you to the rockbottom
and i ben there and im with you....
now im just trying to raise money , which is something that i never thought i would even do someday , im the one who worked 3 jops 7 days a week no rest just 4 hours of sleep if im lucky just to afford to build my studio.
but here i am trying to climb up again from that rockbottom
but this time i need help , i need someone who will support me and let me know that they will be there for me.
id really appreciate any kind of support from anyone , you all dont know how much it means when you find someone telling you its all going to be okay ,
id give my no. , instagram or my email adrress to anyone who wanna even chat