Financial Crisis

Hello, my name is Daliah and I am at the end of my rope. I have never been so desperate in my life to even go as far as searching online for help, but life happens. I am struggling to pay rent, bills, college, and hospital debt. I have been dedicated to being responsible and mature about my decision making, but my health has hindered me from climbing past any problems. I had been working in food service for about two years when I started noticing that I was experiencing excruciating back pain and stomach pain. It had gotten so bad that a few days after my birthday just last year in September.... I admitted myself to the emergency department. I could have avoided it before it got so bad, but how could I visit a doctor with no medical insurance, no parental help, and barely enough money to pay bills with a minimum wage job? Turns out that what I thought to be just torn muscles was a disease that has flipped my world 180 degrees in the other direction. I was diagnosed with Polycystic Kidney Disease and Sacroiliac Joint Disease. Both create chronic back pain with a whole load of blood pressure issues and internal pain. I have chronic hypertension and anxiety. Anytime I eat, if it’s not foods that my kidneys can process, 20 minutes later I am limping and all my muscles in my body are spasming from spinal shock and tension. So working a job with so many physical requirements became almost impossible for me. I have been looking and I have a great opportunity for an interview for a bank teller job in the upcoming month, but I am surrounded by financial stress. After spending a week in the hospital now I am in debt of 11 grand. I went to college, but because of the hurt any psychological pain I was facing being harassed by not only a new roommate but my parents as well, I was ready to end my life. I had to focus on working full time to keep up, but so many trips to the doctors on state medical insurance and paying for every pain killer and anxiety medication out of pocket has been wearing on me. I left my food service job for a caregiving job because of the financial and medical benefits it would bring me. But after working 8 hours shifts running around between 60 needy elderly peoples. I could barely move coming home every night. Excessive amount of bending or twisting inflames my back so I found myself resigning and now I am staying away at night stressing about upcoming deadlines. I knew I have reached times in my life where I thought giving up was so much more easier, but I want to fight. I still have goals. I was going to college to become a wildlife veterinarian. I had goals to be an awesome daughter figure, a girlfriend figure. An honorable and independent individual. I still do! I know that life is not a staircase but a windy path. I know it is tough now, but I have hope for my future because I am willing to move forward