so... it happend. I am 21 years old boy that had many jobs to help the finance situation at home. My mom is terribly sick for years. It has finally started to get better, but she is still unable to work a can barely function. So basicaly the whole family depended on my dad. Also I got sister and younger brother, not even teen. Unfortunately, due to growing big companies and other things, my dads tiny workplace has definitly seen better days and it was NOT getting better. When Corona started, it became much much worse and to put it easily, at this point, it would take few months for us to run out of money and... who knows how it would be. My dad had some psychological problems and together with the stress from work and situation, he could not manage it... today, 19. of January, he took his live at our home. It is... indescribable pain and... and other feelings I have never felt before. I still can't understand it. You always think how it will not be you, and everything will be alright... but reality is different and not easy. I am still shaking as I am writing this, it's... really horrible. And to be honest, I have got no idea what I will do. I will have to take more jobs, and better paid ones just to let us live in relative peace for mentioned few months and... then we will see I guess...
Please, help us to have a chance to recover from this terrible lost. And please, help me take care of my family. I am as broken as they are, but I need to start, I need to become the head of this family and help us in any way. Therefore I beg you, if you have any sparable cent, we will find use for it. I just don't want to see my beloved ones suffer even more. I just... I am lost.