Ela , medical induced illness of brain , benzo pratracted withdrawal

hi dears

I am Ela , I am living the most terryfing moment of my life . I have a medical brain injured diagnoses called protracted benzo withdrawal . There is no cure , only time can cure it until the brain finds the homeostasis . https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Benzodiazepine_wit...

People that has gone through chemotherapy for cancer said chemo is like walk in park compared to benzo withdrawal .

This january , I had a back pain from herniated disc and doctor prescribed diazepam as musle relaxant for 2 weeks with many other medications . After stoping I felt like someone pushed me through hell :

The part of brain that controls fear is out of control . Terror , severe anxiety , fear from everything , agorafobia, deep major , terrible nightmares, depression with suicidal ideation .... The suicidal ideation is so severe that I am fight to stay in life . I want to live but I feel in trap .

There are 9 months going through this ordeal . I cant work . My finances are going down .

The worst imaginable was when herniated disc returned , and now I am beddriden . I cant take care of my self .

Please , I would be very greatful if you help me to pay someone to take care of me .

With lots of Love

Ela