Educational Crisis

Okay, here it goes;

I'm a student in a foreign country doing my bachelors in “Design and Technological Support of Machine building Productions “, and I chose this specific field, because I’m a person that likes innovation and the design aspect of machines (all the way from sketching them till the actual complete prototype) and watching them getting mass-produced is a goal that I had to leave my own country, and study abroad to reach. It took me a really long way to be at able to live in a complete foreign country and a whole new culture but, you have to chase your dreams right? Well I did, and I became good at what I was learning, and was told that I had a good eye when it comes to building parts differently, and following up methods that may seem unfamiliar to the usual process that most of the other students follow, but those methods lead to more accurate results. I got invited to join extra courses by the university that should be of extra help and I did. Now recently, one of my professors asked me to join her in a conference for Designing of Blanks in production fields in Moscow and meet up with a business owner who she talked into letting me have an internship in his company, and as much as excited I was, I happen to idiotically go ahead and try doing some work, to show to this person in hopes of actually speeding up the process of my whole education, and a chance to get an internship in a good place and earn actual experience. Now, not intended to sound like I’m bragging but I AM good at what I do, and I like doing it, but turns out that I’m not that quite well at thinking before taking actions. We use programs that quite well known out there such as Solid works & Inventor (in my case) for designing the parts – and their assembly, programs like 3dmax and others for renderings and editing and others for the mathematical parts and the programing parts. Now these programs are really graphically dependent when it comes to assembly, post programming and definitely the rendering process. And that’s when the crisis occurred. Smart but not patient me, took out a full on solo mini detail part to as mentioned above, show this person we were supposed to meet. And after processing the details at one point I went too hard on my somewhat outdated Lenovo laptop that I mainly bought for Social media and early on college tasks. Now my laptop isn’t spec-d out and it’s not THAT outdated either, I had trust in it since it was an (i5 / 8gbs ram) but an Intel HD graphics card that was not meant to those kind of processes. This led to quite the overheating and damage to CPU and motherboard.

Here I am now, with no laptop, and too much money paid on flight tickets and hotel bookings, too many hopes shattered. Now I know that this was a chance and I idiotically ruined, and that it was no one’s fault but my own going overboard and too excited, but I also know that the day I decided to take that major I wasn’t going to let things get me down, So I did some researches on the Mid tear laptops that can hold such a graphical demand in line and could process quite well under pressure, and I found their prices to be at the range of 1000$. So here I am, not giving up and still chasing every possible way for me to chase the chance, asking you guys out there for a bit of Help so I can get my feet back on the track and Manage to attend that conference, earn that internship and really put myself out there and one day maybe deliver a product that could help the world out there. In a way, that’s what humanity should be about right? To both give and take. I’m not going to write down a quote saying you should donate, quotes are outdated, I’m just going to share the fact that I Know I’m halfway there, and I need your help reaching the other Half. Please?