education and building a new life in islamic ountry

I have had a tough life being raised and born in The Netherlands, being a Turk by origin. I got completely lost between two cultures. Now I'm 45 years old, divorced of my Korean ex-wife and I feel very lost since I returned from Um rah. I don't feel at home any more in the Western World. No psychiatrist nor anybody can help me except you and me.

I am a dynamic, sincere person. I have a deep and general knowledge of all religions, cultures, business and economics, geopolitical relations, science, philosophy. I, ve been around in the world except for the Far East. I have a lot of Indonesian acquaintances a I’m very well aware of their culture. I would like a job to start with for a couple of days per week to adapt and get to know Malaysia better. I would like to study modern Islam and get to know Malaysian culture in the resting time. I only require a salary first to provide my essential needs (food, shelter, travelling money for bus or metro expenses). If a job is not possible, perhaps there are objective or state-funded Malaysian organisations whose mission statement is to aid, teach, fund people in Islam and to improve the name of Islam in the world. I know Malaysia is THE country for my purposes after having done a lot of research on the internet and having talked to Malaysian, Singaporese and Indonesian people. I love the way you create room for an Islamic based state in all of its aspects with respect for other cultures and religions. Your Malaysia and way of living ,including all religions and cultural diversity, modern laws, culture, studies, research, science, values, business is for me the most suitable in all of the Islamic world. Please enable me to live this.

In the Netherlands i don't have the rights to do so. Very sad but true. I have lived here for 45 years, all my life and I still feel a stranger, every day more and more. This kills me slowly. My moral, my visions, my abilities, my intellect. And as spiritual suicide is haram, I would like to stop this at once.

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