Hi everyone. Never thought I'd find myself doing this but here I am as I have absolutely nowhere else to go. I'm a 38 year old gent living in West Yorkshire and unfortunately few months ago I got made redundant and left with nothing as I had not been in the job long enough. I have been living off my savings while I looked for a new job but unfortunately have struggled to get a job- I have managed to get a temporary Christmas job starting end of the month but I am struggling to pay rent and bills, I already owe a month's rent and to be honest my landlord has been patient but it has come to a point where he says I either pay up or move out and I do not have anywhere else to go. I am up to my neck in bills as well and fir the first time in my life i actually felt like ending it all but I was too scared to go ahead with it, I love life and know it will get better and I certainly couldn't do that to my loved ones and friends.
I have tried borrowing from friends and family without any luck and I certainly can't , and shouldn't be borrowing from banks or online lenders as i am unemployed and not trying to add on to my debts. i know you probably hear stories like mine everyday but I don't think people have ever explained how scary and depressing it is. I wake up with my debts and problems on my mind, have to endure the whole day with nothing but the same worries on my mind and when I go to sleep it's the same thing. I am scared stiff about what the next day brings and I honestly need some help and yes, I am highly embarrassed to be in this situation. I don't want this to be an ongoing thing, once I start my Christmas job ( which I hope will lead to a permanent role ) i will at least have rent issues behind me and be able to pick myself up again.
I ask for any sort of contribution and even words of encouragement are welcome because believe me, I feel so lost and alone and I worry that I cannot handle it anymore. I am not out to scam anyone and all money received will be used to pay my rent and bills and get me back on my feet and if anyone wants they can always email me for an update.