DOESN’T MATTER

The moment when you realise that "game over" is not only in videogames.
Here's my quick story,poor bulgarian trying to do something in UK of course,
whitout ANY FUCKING CLUE what to do with his live at the age of 26.Doesn't
matter "UK is the shit go there make millions,fuck bulgaria".Did that,after
year if struggling i land on a OKish job with average salary which is awesome
for a slav(yeah the bulgarians are slavs as well,i think).Most of the
people at work were british,even with my english which is not fluent
we were having good chat,but my drinking buddies at the end of the week
were always polish(kurwa doesn't matter).One day i find out that my mum went to
the local hospital and the docs transfer her to a better hospital and in a chain
she ended up in the capital.After all NHL(cancer,fuck).2 days later i was back
in my hometown with some of the stuff i had in uk,THE SON IS BACK.
Half year of a nightmare for me and probably hell for my mum(maybe more).
chimeo,stemcell transplant and what not.She's fine at this moment thank god
but i did stupid things REALLY stupid things even if they used to say
i am the smartest in our familly tree.sure guys i am the one with game over
on his face.Doesnt matter,shit went even more when i tried out to get out.
Long story short,after few bumps like abortion of my gf,my mum was really sick
with the flu or someshit + stemcell transplant we dont know how she survived.
Shitty job and the new boss is i dont know the word to use but he is something.
Whatever,i think i didnt put everything in a good timeline but i own money to
Non-banking financial institutions which suck but in bulgaria we have a saying
"a man never lived a complete life if he didnt tried the fast credits",
man fuck this,i made even more credits trying to double triple etc. money
with gambling,well shit went DOOOOOOOOOWN.Its not like i own 200000euro or something
but being a bulgarian the amount of 2k-3k its impossible.
I have 7-8 deathlines and my first is in thuesday .Maybe is not the place to ask,maybe
everything above is bullshit but i can tell you one-i might spend the money
again trying to reach the amount that i need to end this game over shit.

tl;dr:i am stupid cunt who fucked his life with fucking things not knowing shit,
my new boss is bizzare fucker no needs a thread,few friends told me that i should
record him,he is a goldmine if you are bulgarian and pay or watch to listen.whatever.

here's my begging webpage : https://paypal.me/helpmeoutfriends