Disabled and creative. Fiction and ideas for the future

I use to work in the IT industry as a datacenter technician. One day I started hearing voices in the white noise. It quickly evolved into paranoid delusions and auditory hallucinations in my head that persecute me 24/7. I had difficulty with social anxiety before but now it comes in the form of paranoid delusions about co-workers, which takes the anxiety levels to an inhumane level. I still have my problem solving abilities and worth ethic but need to be able to work from home. I am hoping to write fiction books in the Science Fition genre, write screen plays and possibly even come up with some future possibilities like The Venus Project. I have already been out of work for four years, without being able to get on disability given the inconclusive nature of my disability. I have attempted therapy, group therapy, pharmeceuticals and continue to do so to no avail. I have also tried relieving myself of the triggers of anxiety, such as fears about technology and it's possible worse-case scenarios. I have fears about mind-control specifically which unravelled a Pandora's Box of worse-case scenarios involving artificial intelligences, immortality, etc. I treated myself by using my problem solving skills. I designed a new government structure and economy, that is an enlightened capitalism. I also created a plan to stimulate the economy for a thousand years and help humanity and capitalists take the next big leap into space industrialization. I have two blogs where you can review my ideas. I have more and plan to incorporate them all into works of fiction. I am currently living with my parents and they are struggling to make ends meet but at the same time I dread the complex paranoid delusions popping in my head like a horror film jack-in-the-box. fractalfederation.tumblr.com terrasys.tumblr.com If you like my ideas and would like to help support until I can make the transistion into a new and alien lifestyle, I would greatly appreciate any resources you can spare. I have thought about giving up many times but the irrationality of it, that enternal logical hope, always acts as a safety net. I hope you can help me to start looking up again. I like Star Trek, Battlestar Galactica, StarGate, Primer, Ender's Game and Ender's Shadow series, Star Wars books, R.J Pineiro, Tom Clancy, Sliders, Dean Koontz, etc.