Hi. I don't usually ask for help certainly not like this but I my situation is complicated. I am well aware that many people are in much distress than I am and deserve your help more than I do.I would be forever grateful to anyone who can help me.
My name is V. Im 29 and I have a son of nearly 8 years old. I still live with my mother since I don't have anywhere else to go.
3 years ago I was blessed with a job at the hospital. I was sure that my family would never ever lack anything. It was my promise. I started making projects to help my family and I took a personal loan to upgrade our home. But 1 year ago I started having severe anxiety attacks. I could no longer travel to work without having thoughts of running under a bus. I could no longer assume my duty at the hospital. Doing injections, making deliveries, caring for newborns, all these became impossible.
I'm currently under treatment for severe anxiety. I can't sleep at night and I can't go back to work either. I can't resign because I signed a bond to work for 5 years and I don't have the right to find another job until I'm out of this bond. I know that it could be worse but believe me it keeps getting worse when everyday I keep receiving calls from the bank to pay my depts immediately. And since I was also a financial support to my mum, all of our depts keep accumulating.
I'm begging all of you who read this, please help me and my family. I never thought that one day I'll be in this position and I don't wish it upon anyone.
For now I'm trying anything to get out of this constant anxious state with meditation, medication, singing, writing etc. I hope that one day, i'll be able to repay you in anyway. Thank you so much. Maybe you'll help, maybe not but I hope that my story will at least be a motivation and that some people may realise that anytime life may change drastically and that anybodies life could become a mess in a blink of an eye. May god bless you.