Desperately in need…

I have added pictures for proof. Looking at them again has me so sick right now. I just felt you should see how honest this is and how difficult it still is.
I was diagnosed with Lupus then Fibromyalgia and I lost my home and my 2 amazing dogs that I had for 3 years. My children and I moved in with a childhood friend 1000 miles away from "home". She offered me a home and help for my children and I until I get the care that I needed and get back on my feet. A few weeks after being there, I learned what a difficult "person" she is to live with. She did not understand sarcasm, took everything literally and accused me of saying things I never had and most of the time it was within a 5 minute argument. I felt like it was a crazy marriage. After being there for about 1 year, in late January I found out that she seduced my teenage son, manipulated him, used him and took his virginity. I have known her since I was 6 years old!! There are no words to describe the emotions going through me. The worse part is, I needed to find actual proof so, I had to look through every text message and every picture that was sent and received btwn the 2. I thought I was going to go crazy! If I slept 2 hours a night, that was a shock. So many things went through my mind. Memories of certain days would haunt me and I realized what "that day" was really about. I cried so much.. Every day.. I remember the day I fell to my knees and screamed from the top of my lungs. I was on the computer, looking up ways to retrieve deleted texts, I got up to look for something and I saw an old Victoria's Secret mag on the table and that's when I realized, a few months ago "my best friend" kept asking me to go to V.S so I finally went. We were there for at least an hour and she had me going crazy trying to find "the perfect" lingerie. I asked her, "Why are you even spending money on this when you broke up with your boyfriend months ago?!" and she said " I just like it". Little did I know, she had me searching and searching for lingerie that she was going to wear for my son.. I went crazy when I realized that.. I couldn't understand how someone can do that to a person they've known for ever.. As if all the text messages I had to read wasn't torture enough, I had to deal with those kind of thoughts and constant images replaying in my head night and day. I know if it wasn't for my youngest, I might be in jail right now. I tried not to get so angry at my eldest. I told him he should have known better.. but, after talking to him about it, I know he genuinely though she loved him until I told him what she said when I confronted her. He was heart broken. I couldn't believe that she did this to us, that she manipulated him, used him yet I'm the one that had to break his heart and tell him to truth about her. It broke my heart to know my youngest knew and he couldn't tell me. When I asked him if he knew of anything or seen anything strange... He paused and said "yes.... Mom, I think I'm going to throw up." He cried to me saying he couldn't tell me because I am sick and we had no where to go. At that moment I understood why he was so angry around her. So many times she would ask him something or try to involve him in something and he would just say "no thank you" and brush her off. She would come to me and say "I don't know why he doesn't like to talk to me." So I would go to him and say "What is wrong with you? How could you treat her that way after everything she has done for us?!?" and he would look at me in such a way that I didn't understand until the moment he told me he knew. I still cry for putting him in that situation. My poor baby. I feel like I failed as a mother. I was supposed to protect them. Instead I took them away from everyone the love and moved them in with the Devil. She still haunts my dreams. I could be fine, listening to music and if a song comes on that we all would sing together, I'd get soop angry and cry. My heart is shattered. My babies are for ever scarred. It's all my fault. .. My children and I will be seeking Therapy after we get settled.
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I'm sorry, I could not stop my hands.. Back to the reason I need help.
After she was charged with "Child Endangerment", Social Services put my children and I on a plane. We had to leave the little we had in storage. Being that I moved all my things to her house, "we" thought it was best to donate 80% of my things because there was not much room in her house and I thought we were all comfortable enough to stay there for quite some time. .. No comment on that...
So now, 2 months later, a Homeless Prevention Program is going to help us with a home! It was a very rough journey to even get that help but I am blessed that it finally came through. They are helping with First, Security and First 3 months of rent! I was over joyed with relief! So now, here's my problem. We have nothing. Our move in date is the 15th of this month and all we have is 1 queen size air mattress and some pillows that my sister lent us. All of our things are in storage in NJ. I have no money to get them. All we have in storage are 2 mattresses, our pillows, sheets, a few bags of clothes and a few boxes of sentimental things but to us, that is everything! A Uhaul truck from NJ to FL is about $1400-$1600 not including gas and tolls which from what I hear is about $700-$800 for a big truck. I also would need help getting to NJ and I believe a train Ticket is about $280. My storage payment is due on the 12th, I do not have the money to pay for it and I even though it is cheaper to pay for that, since I will be moving in on the 15th, I really need my things any way. I am asking for a little more because I'd like to get my babies some more clothes, a dinning room set and a TV for their rooms being that we donated ours months ago. I know there are a lot more people with far more problems than I, and if I could, I'd help them too.
Please help us get the little we have left. It'll mean everything to us. Even $10 will bring me a little closer. If you can't donate and still would like to help, Share in every way you can. I appreciate you taking the time to read this.
If you have any questions, Please feel free to email me at
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I can provide proof and will be more than happy to answer any questions! Thank you all for your time and may you all stay blessed.