This is a personal campaign, thank you so very much for taking the time to read what I have to say.
I cannot go on much longer. I am at the edge of having a mental breakdown right now :( This is my last chance to get things right and stop the depression that has slowly killed me :(
I need to get £500 together in the next four days :( So, I am hoping when you read this, you will be able to find it in your heart to help me and have my eternal thanks to you and your kindness xx
I had my first breakdown when I was 18. I was then taken into a different world to yours, psychiatric wards are, in short, hell! I was to spend 5 years in one thanks to my head.
I was told that I had depression, anorexia and I was addicted to laxatives, even though I didn't eat a thing.
This all started when I was 11 years old. Eating disorders take no prisoners. But the depression was a whole different ball game. I didn't want to exist anymore and death seemed to be the only option for me. To not want to be awake, let the abyss swallow you whole. Everything was black for a very long time.....
I started to cut myself with razor blades, and trying many times to end my life.
The last time I became depressed I withdrew from the world, My beautiful girl cat had died :( I still cry every day because she is not here with me anymore. My cats are my life and I would do anything for them.
But pets are very expensive and deva's death has landed me in debt, I need your help. Over the years having my cats has saved my life. I am rarely in hospital now because of them and starting to live a relatively normal life. I would be lost without them.
I will always have cat food in my cupboards, even if it means I go hungry.
Please if you can help me return to a happier life, where my depression is not so bad and I am clear of the debts that are making me very ill at the moment. worry and fear constantly inside me, mystery, jet and my deva are asking for your help as I have debtors coming to take away my life in four days and we will be lost forever.